The Struggle

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Ah, where to start?

I've been struggling for so long now.

I feel like I'm in a cave pushing my

way up, pushing the rocks & rubble

out of the way in the darkness.

The only thing left keeping me going

is the hope I'll one-day break through

to the light.

I feel like I'm trapped, held down.

I've been fighting so long.

Always trying to strive ahead

Always taking on responsibilities

and leadership.

Qualities I value but I don't know

I'm wearing out. I feel so frustrated

I know GOD is by my side, lifting me up

and I cry everytime I think about the

unconditional love he gives us.

But I just can't help feeling this way.

This cave seems endless with no sign

of an end, an opening, no light.

My life has become like mountains.

Complete with peaks and valleys.

I get to a peak and slide right back

down into the valley.

I feel like a lone man struggling for

the success of all mankind.

I have so much weight on my shoulders

I take time off and the weight

disappears but when I return

it comes right back.

The frustration builds, I don't know

where to turn. I can't concentrate

for a minute anymore the tension

is building up faster now.

I feel like I am going to explode.

My emotions are at their peak.

What do I do, where do I go.

Jesus please bring my heart

some peace, it's broken now

the pieces need to be mended

back together again.

Will there be relief? Will there be some understanding? Will this stress ever end?

My life is such a rush.

Constantly racing around, from

one thing to another.

Family time is few and near gone.

Where do I turn?

I can not rationalize anymore.